Letters from Tick Tock

Mum, It's been a while but it didn't seem to help at at all, It felt silly in a way but I have really been missing you lately. I don't want to believe it, and neither does my mind. You have missed so much Mum, mine and Missy's birthday and her first day of school, she looked so grown up. She now has to wear a shirt and tie and she just looks so smart. L did good on my birthday, he got me some lovely gifts and even went for a meal with Dad too. Strange I know. Was odd you not being there in person. Lilly had a great day too, we took her swimming because that is what she wanted to do. She loved it, she splashed, danced and generally had fun. I now have a wonderful 5 year old daughter who should be growing up around you. We all miss you so so much Mum. I don't want you to be gone, I want and need you here with me. Love you so much.    Tick Tock xxx

Mum,      Hi mum, I know it's been a while but for a while it didn't help. I feel at such a loss right now and didn't really know where else to turn. I miss you more and more every day, and watching Missy grow before my eyes breaks my heart more knowing you'll never witness this.      I have heard so many people say, just one more phonecall, one more conversation but NO, becuase I would never want it to end, I would need want to say goodbye again. I just wish I had told you how much you meant to me more, and how special you still are to all of us.        Missy is doing well, she has been a bit of a pain today though and certainly pushed our buttons. L is still looking after me, making sure I eat, smile and take care of myself. Dad is doing OK, he misses you though.        We are going to have a meal next week at CM to celebrate P birthday (belated), your life and wish Dad well in his ...

Mum,   It has already been a week since our final goodbye and it has really hit me. I am missing you more than ever and I am completely heartbroken that you are no longer with us.   I am finder it harder as the days go on not being able to pick up the phone for a chat. I loved our nightly chinwags and gossips. I jusy wish it wasn't so, it still seems so alien to me.   I also have so many questions to ask you, I just want to know your ok. You were and are still so loved by so many around me and I just wish that we spoke more the last time I phoned you, I wish I had held on just that little but longer to tell you about my day.   I also wish you had held on just that little bit longer, so you could hear me say how important you were to me one last time. It all happened so suddenly which made it even more unreal.      Tick Tock xx